The opposite of "the calm before the storm," is what awesome executive coach, Clara Chorley, says, "Hang in There. Right when things get most uncomfortable and you want to walk/run/crawl away… is often right when things are about to turnaround and come to you."
Just before the butterfly emerges, it is a worm that turns into slush before it becomes a butterfly. And so before the metamorphosis comes the disintegration.
Right now, I have been in the cocoon as a worm, and now I am turning into slush. I feel weak, punched to stomach, negative, anxious and scared that I will not get the job I like and worked hard to get a second interview for. Though I put tremendous effort to stay positive and remain courageous, I am just tired. I am clammy, restless, and I cannot get off the couch. I am also ultra-sensitive and about to pick a fight with my partner, just to get my mind off the waiting.
I am strong, I take chances, and I have withstood bigger rejections and longer waiting. I will get that job and if I don't, I will be okay. . . . that is the reality of my energy. I wish to trick my subconscious with imagery but I think it knows. . . .
Deep breaths. . . .I see myself BARTing to training, trying my best, exhilarated and fulffilled at this wonderful second chance to heal, to live. . . .Please Universe, open and arrange that for me. . . .